I WANTED TO BE ANGRY AT HIM! But I just can’t. Not anymore. It’s useless because my being angry doesn’t affect him in any way. It’s as if my feelings are totally insignificant.
Okay fine. He wanted to be with another person on his special day. Fine. Just fine. I’m starting to think something fishy is going on. I’m feeling so bad. I felt I’ve been passed over. Like I’m an insignificant person that he would rather be with somebody else than me. I don’t hate him. Instead, I hate myself. I just never really learn…
Maybe I should give HIM a name already. It’s starting to get really confusing.
Okay…what about NARCISSUS? I think that would really suit him fine.
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Sam of Pinoy Big Brother suddenly realized that he’s got some special feelings for the recently evicted Chix. And now he’s missing her.
How I wish Narcissus would feel the same way when I’ll be gone…
But problem is I just can’t leave him. Or at least be not present in his life for a long time. Not texting or talking to him for a day really makes me feel sad. Ohhhhhh…this is so bad. So bad. Bad for me because I’m letting myself be the doormat again.
